Hello, my name is Melanie. It has been three months since my last blog post. Yeah, that’s about right. Three months with no art created; a barren wasteland so populated with unproductive malaise that I just gave up trying in the end. Why try to force creativity where there is none? What is the point of sitting there making something that nobody, least of all me, will appreciate, want, or understand?
Something snapped that couldn’t be fixed. External factors meant relaxation and contemplation were impossible. Weathering the storm became the only goal. Nothing seemed possible. Until now.
So what has changed? Everything and nothing. I am in a different place physically and mentally and I am definitely getting back to being my previous creative self. It’s been tough trying to work out how to get back into the swing of things after being so long in the doldrums. I’ve started in the only place I can think to start and that is to pick up the thread I was working on in December and see where it takes me.
Back on December 2nd I finished creating 13 Bad Pennies , three of which featured in the Love Tokens and Bad Pennies exhibition which showed in and around London last month. In turn, I used images from this series to create art for the 6x6x2019 show at Rochester Contemporary Art Center. This will exhibit later in the year in upstate New York. So far, so good, for exhibitions in 2019 but that’s not what I’m looking for. I honestly don’t mind if these are the only exhibitions I show in this year. Art is a manifestation of the creative spirit within, and that is the primary concern for me with the viewer being a secondary issue.
To challenge my creative malaise, I’m using the remaining Bad Pennies to create Good Pennies. I’m making facial imprints from the Bad Pennies in fresh clay and using their indents to create new faces. I’m attempting to turn a token representing something bad into something good. I’m tipping my perspective on its head and questioning all the aspects of what my art means to me. There are no goals, no restrictions, no deadlines, and no exhibitions for this work. My only aim is to start making again on a regular basis.
I need to give myself time for me; regular, constructive, creative, time. I have a new designated studio space which should help with keeping myself on track. Even if I’m moving my art forward slowly, at least I will be moving.
I’ll let you know how I get on… in my own sweet time.